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**~Em's Page~**
__Five Things I've never noticed before in school__: 1. There are dents in the wall tiles in between the paper towel dispensers in the Language hallway bathroom. 2. The surface of the wall changes from smooth to brick across from Ms. Hayden's door. 3. There is a patch of glue above the plaque that says "Girls P.E. Locker Room", indicating that the label had been moved. 4. In the hallway behind the kitchen there are two doors the janitors use. One opens toward the hallway, the other opens away from it. 5. There is a heating vent on the wall inside the SE outside doors behind the gym.

Winter Formal Night 2008 awwwww

__10 **Important** Things about Me__: o Appreciate me for **who I am**, whether you like me as a person or not. o Black and white is a one way street. I need to **touch** mushy clay, crunch tortilla chips, and **see** variations of hues on a painting. o I need my best friend who is always there when I need him, **hold** me when I'm down, and **te****ll** me about his day when I tell him about mine. o I need to know I'm in someone's **heart**, as well as keeping my friends close to me and show them I care about them. o You don't have to **like me**, but don't give me the cold shoulder because you have something against me. **Treat me** like I'm a person like I will do the same for you no matter who you are. o I need to be **snuggled** in a blanket or warm bed. Avoiding cold, empty air is normal for me. o Pencils and paper help me relieve stress and take the frustration out of my life. I have to **write**. Letters, notes, or making cards all help me focus and keep me realizing what my priorities are. o Living life trying to make others happy is what I love to do, but if I am not feeling optimistic myself, it doesn't seem worth it. I need **happiness** for myself so I can share with others. o I need to know that I will be able to support my family as well as myself in the future. **Security** is definitely a must have to me. o Setting good examples for my friends and my future kids is also a top priority to me. I want to know that I did my best to set **my children** up for the best life they have the chance to live.

__Journal Entry 1__: I relaxed in front of the TV working on my Precalc homework as my new Chocolate3 cell phone rang. I answered the call and my dad then asked me if I was busy. After I told him I wasn't, he asked if I could drive down to the courthouse to fill out tax forms for myself and my parents.

A few minutes later, I arrived at his office and started plugging critical numbers into forms. I then thought to myself, "Wow, what's going to happen when I'm not here anymore? What will I do when I'm all alone or married and neithor of us really know anything about filling these out?" Lately I've been wondering about ideas like that. Even though I do not want to be, I am still fairly dependent on my parents. I'm a bit scared that trying to survive on my own is much more difficult than I have been expecting.

Suprisingly to some people, I have been threatened to be kicked out of my house more than once or twice since the summer. I have been locked out several times, and my friends say, "Why don't you just leave then?" As badly as I most often want to, I am too needy and dependent on my parents. Thinking tiwice about my future, I do not want to be thrown out on my own until I have to be. I would love to leave now, but I am not completely set up for college, nor do I have the money to fully support myself, therefore that is not an option. Who knew that filling out tax forms could lead a person to realize years ahead of his or her future in only an instant?

__What I Want Is poem__: What I want is to be accepted

To have what I want would relieve stress

Being accepted is winning the battle

Overcoming the struggle would allow me happiness

the missing element I need to live

Life without the one you love is no life at all

To fight for love is to live with a purpose

To lose the battle would be to waste a lifetime

To fight for love is always worthwhile

To stand up for your beliefs is to accept yourself

Accepting yourself is to accept you, and you, and you